Last Night, I realized how much growth and change I had gained in the past few years. 

I've seen the BAD, GOOD, UGLY and Slightly HUMOUROUS situations. All of these changed me, broke me, taught me a lot and in all made me a better person. it's funny how I'm still processing things from 2019 and 2023 is in a few Days.

I remember this time in 2019, my DM's were packed with messages, (90% of them were boys) it's was very overwhelming for me considering the fact that I was a child and pretty immature.  Back then I thought everything revolved around me and the stupid fantasy I was living in. 2020 was honestly the same as 2019 but kind of more toxic. I was breathing in toxicity day and night, I don't even know how I survived back then. I used to have so many (online) friends, that were not adding anything to my life, useless and stupid unproductive friendships.

Then in 2021, my eyes started to open and everyone slowly left one by one, it felt like a dream for a minute or two. I remember having 5k friends on Facebook and there were days that I would not even talk to 1 of them. It finally realized how lonely I was. Then God decided to send me help, but I refused. It was a very toxic period, Toxicity pro max. I finally surrendered and took the help. Everything Got better.

2022 was the best, absolutely the best, I got closer with my family, I found God, I realized how important I was, everything Changed, I Changed.

But there were days, the toxicity people that were still hanging on didn't allow me rest, lonely from the fact that I shut everyone out and focused on myself was also there. It was painful, but it didn't consume me, I beat it, shut it out and let it all go. 

The DM's are all gone,

The fake love story, 

The I don't know what to call it (Friendship - Relationship) thingy,

The boys, (Bad or Good)

The 5k Facebook friends

The hatred and pain that ruined me,

The toxic friends,

All gone.

I'm back to square one, I should have listened to the advice my Mom gave, I'm back to where I started off. I'm receiving the punishment now. 

Life is too short to rush, take it slowly, one day at a time.  

That Girl Called Love.